Started off the weekend in a fantastic mood, very happy. Not so much now, its like some people just want to knock the wind out of your sails. I choose to address my health in a different way, and I understand it makes some people uncomfortable. I was yelled at by two people I care about because I have chosen not to be on Insulin at this time. Literally told I HAVE to be on insulin.
You know they may be right, but anyone who reads my blogs knows why I am doing what I am doing. I do not want to be in that kind of pain again, I understand every consequence of my actions. I was in misery, I was suffering, and just don't see how prolonging that was doing me any good at all.
I just went through a very stressful week at work, and I survived it, and was in a great mood.
I believe that part of any health battle starts in the mind, I have the will to stick to my diet, and am willing to change the parts that are not working. I have a great faith.
Why do some people who claim to care about me seem determined to want to knock me into some kind of reality check? I have made my decision.
I guess that really bothers people, but I have to do what is right for me.
Happiness and the quality of life is to me worth more then longevity, I have a disease that probably will shorten my life no matter what I do. I have said this all before, If I am happy then let me be happy.
If you care about me, go ahead express your concerns, but listen to me also.
I guess thats what this blog is all about. I am writing down everything I am going through, good and bad things. If I do pass away, know this, I made my choice, I tried my best, but I decided on a different pathway. I am a faithful person, so I believe Heaven will be my destination. I used to think about death all of the time, now I don't.
I just don't want anyone to worry about me, if you do then that's great, and I will love you for it, But please don't get all negative on me, that I can't deal with right now.
Everything I am doing is about being positive, From my relationships, to my food choices, I just want to have a good time, and enjoy my life, where it is right now. Thanks for checking in, Mrs Cook
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